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I'm starting to Detest school. I hate the assingments and the fact that the exams are nearing. I feel completely unprepared and not bothered. This is definately not good. Not good at all. I just want to do well enough..i need to push myslef..but how?..i'm just so sick of the same old routine.

Come back frm school.bath.down 2 cans of red bull.study.come back from school.bath.down 2 cans of red bull.study.Come back from school.bath.down 2 cans of red bull.study.Come back from school.bath.down 2 cans of redbull.study...........same shit different fraking day.

I hate this routine. And the fact that i stay 2 hours away from my school doesn't help at all. I mean yes, i love my school and the poeple in it. I'm really enjoying myself at TP. But ending a long day at school and taking 2 hours to get home really isn't peachy at all.

And the fact that on alternate days, i have to make my way to my grandmother's house is just the icing on the cake. I abhore going there. Anyone would. If it wasn't for the fact that i studied in the East where my grandmother just so happens to work, i wouldn't even bother going there,save to maybe visit her on the weekends.

I miss my girls a hell lot. I hate that school always gets in the way of me spending more time with them. It's either that or i have something less important that i am being forced to go for. Jesus Chirst.

Well basiclly right now i just lack the motivation. And i have no clue how to get motivated. Should i be worried? Hell yes. But my worry isn't going to help me get motivated. If that doesn't,what will?


....till next time fella..catch you on thr flipside..=)