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Once upon a midnight dreary, while I pondered weak and weary,
Over many a quaint and curious volume of forgotten lore,
While I nodded, nearly napping, suddenly there came a tapping,
As of some one gently rapping, rapping at my chamber door.`
'Tis some visitor,' I muttered, `tapping at my chamber door -
Only this, and nothing more.'

Ah, distinctly I remember it was in the bleak December,
And each separate dying ember wrought its ghost upon the floor.
Eagerly I wished the morrow; - vainly I had sought to borrow
From my books surcease of sorrow - sorrow for the lost Lenore -
For the rare and radiant maiden whom the angels named Lenore -
Nameless here for evermore.

And the silken sad uncertain rustling of each purple curtain
Thrilled me - filled me with fantastic terrors never felt before;
So that now, to still the beating of my heart, I stood repeating
`'Tis some visitor entreating entrance at my chamber door -
Some late visitor entreating entrance at my chamber door; -
This it is, and nothing more,'

Presently my soul grew stronger; hesitating then no longer,
`Sir,' said I, `or Madam, truly your forgiveness I implore;
But the fact is I was napping, and so gently you came rapping,
And so faintly you came tapping, tapping at my chamber door,
That I scarce was sure I heard you' - here I opened wide the door; -
Darkness there, and nothing more.

Deep into that darkness peering, long I stood there wondering, fearing,
Doubting, dreaming dreams no mortal ever dared to dream before
But the silence was unbroken, and the darkness gave no token,
And the only word there spoken was the whispered word, `Lenore!'
This I whispered, and an echo murmured back the word, `Lenore!'
Merely this and nothing more.

Back into the chamber turning, all my soul within me burning,
Soon again I heard a tapping somewhat louder than before.
`Surely,' said I, `surely that is something at my window lattice;
Let me see then, what thereat is, and this mystery explore -Let my heart be still a moment and this mystery explore; -'Tis the wind and nothing more!'

Open here I flung the shutter, when, with many a flirt and flutter,
In there stepped a stately raven of the saintly days of yore.
Not the least obeisance made he; not a minute stopped or stayed he;
But, with mien of lord or lady, perched above my chamber door -
Perched upon a bust of Pallas just above my chamber door -
Perched, and sat, and nothing more.

Then this ebony bird beguiling my sad fancy into smiling,
By the grave and stern decorum of the countenance it wore,
`Though thy crest be shorn and shaven, thou,'
I said, `art sure no craven.
Ghastly grim and ancient raven wandering from the nightly shore -
Quoth the raven, `Nevermore

Much I marvelled this ungainly fowl to hear discourse so plainly,
Though its answer little meaning - little relevancy bore;
For we cannot help agreeing that no living human being
Ever yet was blessed with seeing bird above his chamber door -
Bird or beast above the sculptured bust above his chamber door,
With such name as `Nevermore.'

But the raven, sitting lonely on the placid bust, spoke only,
That one word, as if his soul in that one word he did outpour.
Nothing further then he uttered - not a feather then he fluttered -
Till I scarcely more than muttered
`Other friends have flown before -
On the morrow will he leave me, as my hopes have flown before.
'Then the bird said, `Nevermore.'


Startled at the stillness broken by reply so aptly spoken,
`Doubtless,' said I, `what it utters is its only stock and store,
Caught from some unhappy master whom unmerciful disaster
Followed fast and followed faster till his songs one burden bore -
Till the dirges of his hope that melancholy burden bore
Of "Never-nevermore."'

But the raven still beguiling all my sad soul into smiling,
Straight I wheeled a cushioned seat in front of bird and bust and door;
Then, upon the velvet sinking, I betook myself to linking
Fancy unto fancy, thinking what this ominous bird of yore -
What this grim, ungainly, gaunt, and ominous bird of yore
Meant in croaking `Nevermore.'

This I sat engaged in guessing, but no syllable expressing
To the fowl whose fiery eyes now burned into my bosom's core;
This and more I sat divining, with my head at ease reclining
On the cushion's velvet lining that the lamp-light gloated o'er,
But whose velvet violet lining with the lamp-light gloating o'er,
She shall press, ah, nevermore!

Then, methought, the air grew denser, perfumed from an unseen censer
Swung by Seraphim whose foot-falls tinkled on the tufted floor.
`Wretch,' I cried, `thy God hath lent thee - by these angels he has sent thee
Respite - respite and nepenthe from thy memories of Lenore!
Quaff, oh quaff this kind nepenthe, and forget this lost Lenore!'
Quoth the raven, `Nevermore.'


Prophet!' said I, `thing of evil! - prophet still, if bird or devil! -
Whether tempter sent, or whether tempest tossed thee here ashore,
Desolate yet all undaunted, on this desert land enchanted -
On this home by horror haunted - tell me truly, I implore -
Is there - is there balm in Gilead? - tell me - tell me, I implore!'
Quoth the raven, `Nevermore.'

Prophet!' said I, `thing of evil! - prophet still, if bird or devil!
By that Heaven that bends above us - by that God we both adore -
Tell this soul with sorrow laden if, within the distant Aidenn,
It shall clasp a sainted maiden whom the angels named Lenore -
Clasp a rare and radiant maiden, whom the angels named Lenore?'
Quoth the raven, `Nevermore.'

Be that word our sign of parting, bird or fiend!' I shrieked upstarting -
`Get thee back into the tempest and the Night's Plutonian shore!
Leave no black plume as a token of that lie thy soul hath spoken!
Leave my loneliness unbroken! - quit the bust above my door!
Take thy beak from out my heart, and take thy form from off my door!'
Quoth the raven, `Nevermore.'

And the raven, never flitting, still is sitting, still is sitting
On the pallid bust of Pallas just above my chamber door;
And his eyes have all the seeming of a demon's that is dreaming,
And the lamp-light o'er him streaming throws his shadow on the floor;
And my soul from out that shadow that lies floating on the floor
Shall be lifted - nevermore!

HAPPY HALLOWEEN EVERYBODY!

*blows nose*..damn the goddamned haze i tell you!..thnks to it i have a freaking BAD cough and running nose..was supposed to meet ash today for brewekrz but beacuse of my cold, i had to stay home...sorry ash!..next time k?..

i was lying in bed this morning and i realised i didn't blog about how my deepavali went..i mean not that it was extremely fun and happening or anything..this deepavali really didn't feel like a festive occasion..it felt like any ordinary day actually..i think the reason why it felt so "normal" or uneventful was because my grandad wasn't around to celebrate it with us..i miss him tremendously...i never realised it before but he really was a big part of why deepavali was so fun for me..

I remember on deepavali mornings how my dad would yell at us to wake up and get changed and rush us to my grandpa's place where my grandma would quickly adorn us with her jewellary while my grandad got his camrea ready to take photos of us in our new outfits..

I remember how my cousins and my sisters would have to stand in the hot sun while my grandad took pictures of us,all the while making fun of the way we stood or scolding us for not smiling properly..he really loved taking photos..without fail,every deepavali from the time i could remember..not this deepavali though..not anymore..

I remember how every deepavali he would sit in his study room and call us all in one by one to secretly give us money so we wouldn't have to put it in our banks..

I remember the jokes he cracked and how he made fun of my grandmother's cooking or dressing or just simply made fun of her..

I remember how he would always be on his chair in front of the TV,waiting to greet me as i entered..

god i miss him...It's going to be a year now...

..till next time fellas...catch you on the flipside...=)

hello you..

so school started today.Mixed feelings really..I'm half looking forward to the new semester,half not.Half looking forward to it because i can't wait to see what this sem has in store for me;Half not beacuse i'm dreading the projects and what not...hais..

Had conveyancing lecture today..seems like a pretty ok subject...and just like LCOM,it's a 100% course-based subject...Great!..just what i need..rahhh!!!....had Accounts after..was pretty alright too lah...I got home and slept like a fricking slob and now..i'm having difficulty going back to sleep..bloody hell..

I really have got to learn to stop being so sentimental.I feel it is this that really keeps me from letting go of the past.As much as i want to and as much as everyone around me says to,i just cannot seem to live and let live..

As much as i want to be happy for you and her (and i am ),a part of me feels so.....i don't know how to put it in words..I know it's been such a long time now,and it shouldn't come as a suprise that you've moved on..but still..when you told me yesterday,as much as i was expecting it,i was still a bit..how to say..shocked?..I guess i never really knew how much i had "moved on" until yesterday..

Argh!..i really don't know what to feel anymore..after what you told me yesterday (that you've been with her for a few months), i can't help but to think of what you told me 2 months back..now i wonder if you said that because you meant it or because you were simply trying to get back at me for what happened..

I guess i'll just have to settle for the seconed best option right?...

But all that aside,i'm just glad we're ok now..

cause some other girl has got your heart
and it's tearing me apart

...Till next time fellas....catch you on the flipside...=)

Magus Luna 2,The Fairytales.i'm at a loss for words actually.I don't know where to start.I really don't.I have so many things to say to everyone who made this a sucess..everyone..from the performers right down to the audience.

The performers..god where do i start?..all of you worked so hard for 3 months-from the auditions to the rehersals-and never once gave up.In fact the more set backs you guys had the harder you pushed,the more you strived for perfection.I'm most proud of the freshies.You guys are such a talented and committed bunch.I know that with you lot,DramaTec will definately go far..

Ghaulia
Hirzi,Muna,Nisha,Yana and Aisha..Your dance moves were the shit and your roles perfect.I'm most impressed with Yana and her improptuing.You guys set your mind on something and achived it.Thank you.

Unicorn and the Alleycat
Mas and Yazid..as always, a splendid performance.Your catl ike abilities Yazid still amaze me..as do you Mas.Thank you.

Dilly and Jo rap
One of the most improved groups i must say.I was starting worry your performance won't pull through but you guys(especially Dilly) worked hard and wowed the crowed.Thank you.

Monkey Man
Mato,You stepped in at the last minute to fill up a performance gap..all this on top of being head organiser..good on ya mate!.Thank you.

3 wishes
You guys worked veryvery hard with your props and what not and really impressed everyone watching you performance (although there were the unexpected laughs).You worked and worked on your performance until it was near perfect.Thank you.

Songs
Fadz ans Elias..haha..good singing and playing.Elias your voice has improved drasticlly and fadz your playing was good.Thank you.

Crew

Kay-You stepped in and helped us pull this whole thing together when you could have just stepped aside and not gotten involved.You helped in so many ways and i am so grateful for what you have done for DramaTec.You're an inspiration.Thank You.

Ashwin-You're one of the easiest people to work with.You always find a way to make a joke out of a bad situation.Thank you for being the SM and getting things like lights and sound together.You might just get laid now.Thank you.

Pica-You are so organised!.Thank you for ordering the food for us,doing FOH with me and following me to get the flowers.Thank you.

Mato-I've never seen you so focused on something like how you were for magus luna.It really was quite a joy working with you on this.You really helped alot of the groups improve by working with them.Thank you.

Main Comm- Like mato said,as much as MAto and i were the prganisers,without the suport of Mas and Fadz,this wouldn't have been possible.Thank you.

Nadi Crew-you guys were so patient and toloerable toward us.THANK YOU.

To anyone else i forgot-Thank you for helping make Magus Luna 2 a success.

Now design space is empty with no sign whatsoever that anyhting took place there.No sign of a full house audience,no sign of anything.Like Kay said,only memories that we'll take with us.

..till next time fellas...catch you on the flipside..=)

why hello there...hurhur...

so i was talking to Ash the other day over some teh alia and in the course of our conversation,he mentioned how he was sure that if he bought this one particular shirt,he was,in his own words,"gonna get laid".

I sat there smiling at his stupidity as i always do (c'mon lets not kid ourselves) when i realised that this wasn't the first time he had said something like this (that he was going to get laid that is). I slowly started recalling all the other times he had said that and how it just never seemed to work.

So i decided,just for shits and tickles,to come up with with a sort of list...

BEHOLD............................................................................................................

ahh Clarice...it's been a long time coming..what has been up on thee?

Well quite a few things actually..hurhur...lets see...

1) Poly forum..boooo!!!!..waht a total waste of time..although i did make new freinds..guess that was the only fun thing..Alyssa and myself ended up being the emcees for our subtheme's final presentation to the Perm Sec of MCYS..the Perm Sec i tell you!..now if i remember my LSM2 correctly,the Perm Sec is someone quite important..too bad he wasn't paying attention to what we were saying...haisss...

2) So after Poly forum was over,i met my ladies at HardRock cafe for dinner and coffee after..i got my script for the Cannon Dv Fest 06 from Kristy who was the director..basiclly i played a girl, Carrie ,who was a jealous,arrogant bitch..filming took about 3 days..haha i'm jst glad i'm on the acting side of things. man..things like directing,sound,producing are so technical!..i'll never be able to do it..haha..and it's amazing how a scence that on screen is only about 5 mins long takes like an hour to film...man..haha..thst's why i'd do theatre any day!..hmm..i think i've said something like this before...Septembers archive if i'm not wrong...

3)o..and then there was Mato's performance at Timbre..went down with ash to watch him perform...was cool..and it was for a good cause..o!..and i met Mathilda from Spore Idol there..turns out her Boyfriend is in the same band as Ashwin..she's nice..

4)hais..Ah..and then myself,dominic and leon went down to brewerkz for some beer..was cool lah..had the Oktoberfest beer..was quite nice actually..so after like getting high at like 7,we decided we wanted more and got what our wallets could afford...beer from 7-eleven...but it was all good..so we just sat by the river and talked..Mato joined us later at Liang court for his dinner..well half his dinner..we took the other half...then cabbed back home with LEon..i hope i gave him enough cab fare man..and got to my grannies...

well yeap that's all folks!

....till next time fellas....catch you on the flipside..=)