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Hello there everybody..well it's 13 days into the new year and i must say it hasn't gone by so badly after all..cept the fact tt it's been really bz..hais..well tt's life i guess..better learn to succumb to it like i would a deadly,sickly,gross disease.Anyway i went back to IJ on sat for their open house..met clare,alts,tanya,sarah,jog and other ppl..man..it felt so good going back to IJ and meeting the teachers and catching up with my friends..and the school looks nice too..

Tuesday there was a lunch at my grannie's place..all my relatives came and had nice food to eat..was fun having them around..cracking jokes and what not..turns out one of the members from The Suns -rock group famous in aussie land,banned in spore once and featured most recently in the papers (3oth dec 2005)-is related to me..sunjay..nice guy though.not y0our typical rockstar lah..

So then the rest of the week has pretty much been abt drama rehersals and stuff like tt..went to Ngee Ann poly yeast for rehersals..god the arts centre there is so dogey.The toilets reminded me of a scene from a nightmare i once had..it was a very very bad case of dejavu..*shudders*..then got back to my grannies and stuffed myself like a pig..got a suprising call with unwanted news..

You know, its dawned on me how difficult it is to pretend and try to sound fine over the phone or in person when you actually deep down inside just feel like crying..no amount of acting in the world would allow me to pull tt off..but somehow yesterday i actually managed to pull it off..i actually manged to sound fine and alright when i recived the call..but i put the phone down,and for a good 1 min i actually could'nt put a finger on what i was feeling..i teared and then went on like nth had ever happened..which quite honestly scared me..

So anyway tomorrow's our performance at Ngee Ann..hope it goes well and i don't screw up..haha..there's actually alot more things i'd like to say..BUT..i guess somethings are better left unsaid..

"Sleep" (copeland)

Am I sleeping with my eyes wide
Am I alone?
Am I staring into bright lights
Have I gone home?
I must be dreaming when I'm sitting here
On someone else's throne
Am I sleeping with my eyes wide
Won't you let me know?

Will I wake to find you waiting by my bedside?
Will I wake to find you waiting by my side?
Will I wake to find you waiting by my bedside?
Will I wake to find you waiting by my side?

Am I sleeping with my eyes wide
Am I alone?
Am I following the lines on faces never shone?
I want to see your hairline, your cheekbones
Your red lips on your cell phone
Won't you let me know?

Will I wake to find you waiting by my bedside?
Will I wake to find you waiting by my side?
Will I wake to find you waiting by my bedside?
Will I wake to find you waiting by my side?

Will I wake to find you waiting by my bedside?
Will I wake to find you waiting by my side?
Will I wake to find you waiting by my bedside?
Will I wake to find you waiting by my side?


Till next time fellas..catch you on the flipside=)